30 layers 30 days : cluttered mind

My thoughts as much as I can have them be are mine . I will not nor will I ever allow someone to silence my truths . Sometimes people are delusional about who they think they are until they see it in black and white.

My black and white truths were :

My marriage ending

The prescription bottle that told me everything about my ex.

The text from my son cheering me on before he left for school about my goals for my business. What I am trying to figure out why did I almost let another delusional emotionally unstable man try to have space for free in my head and why did I let another man attempt to trick me into what we were not .

• A man that lied and when caught in a lie was way too angry for a normal person.

• A man that was so stubborn and not emotionally ready for a relationship that honestly believe a woman telling him she was mad about his lack of communication and not the fact that he put his children first was the reason for the demise of what they had and had everything to a with him as a person and nothing to do with him as a father.

• A man that not only could not please a woman and he was so far from doing so that when she corrected him his ego was bruised so she continued on with the facade .

• a man that disappeared and then showed up months later pretending that he wanted something real but wanted sex only and when he was called out acted like he was a victim

So a delusional emotionally unstable man that lies and could not sexually satisfy me honestly what could he possibly say to me to hurt me or break my spirit? NOT a mother fucking thing . 😆 allowing someone into my life my safe haven thinking his intentions were well why would he try to clutter my thoughts why if he has moved on with his life try to break the spirit of my friend ? I am moving forward with my life I understand his frustration and I get exactly why he is mad but I will say this for the 50th time Any man that is there for his children and has their best interest at heart is a great guy and no woman ever should question it or expect him to put her before them. With that being said If you are dating and trying to impress women make sure you have time in your life for her and Money to do so as well otherwise you will find yourself Single, divorced and sadly in some cases cheated on like in my case. Never give them power and free your mind.