Single in the city: My Mr. Big part 4

Random thoughts :

I don't know why he's still around

He doesn't care

He's using me and I'm using him

I'm codependent upon him and I'm disgusted . He told me he loved me while holding me in bed last night but got up this morning to make sure I was aware that it wasn't that kind of love . Oh my gosh it's annoying and I know my complaints are dumb since I'm doing this to myself he's confusing and not the dark mysterious sexy kind. More so the annoyance and frustrated kind I know him well enough to know he's got 50 more walls up than me how can you tell someone you know their worth and that they are a good person but you understand they want more with someone else and then state you will be pissed if I up and got in a relationship. See self absorbed we got in an argument about food the last time I saw him I gave him my last that was in my fridge this was 2 weeks ago. The food is still in his fridge you know why I'm mad I was hungry payday was near and I gave my last to him and he took it even with a freezer full of food he was too lazy to take out . PISSED PISSED PISSED mostly at me never again never again the more time that is lapsing. The easier it is for me to not think of him and the less time I spend with him makes it easier to not think about the mind blowing sex . And the more I'm around Mr unexpected let's me know soon Mr Big will become Mr who in my life .

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