Single in the city:friendships,relationships, and my mother

Had some self reflection over the last week , I was thinking that my friendships with my best friends have out lasted all of my relationships I have ever been in. Almost made me realize that all of my very best and dear friends are my true soul mates and a guy that comes in my life would be lucky enough to get a slotlol. I love my circle they keep me grounded ,sane, comfort me ,and cheer me on when life's great and console me when there's a dark cloud. I honestly love them with my whole heart and can't imagine life without them they are all scattered across the United states and I'm lucky we can chat once a week or everyday sometimes months go by but we pick up right where we left off . My friend kitty I'm envious of her relationship she has with her mother it's not toxic , it's loving and normal for the most part lol . I'm not as fortunate to have this since the age of 12 my relationship with my mother was toxic . Up until I was 18 when I had enough and left my house with the clothes on my back I was subjected to mental, and physical abuse at the hands of my mother not to say I was the best kid but the treatment wasn't warranted to be honest . Final straw for me was the fact that I got accepted to 2 colleges and my mother wanted me to stay locally and work and pay bills in her home to pay back what they have cared for previously . When I said these were great colleges and I'm lucky one of them even said yes I have to go my mother took a wine bottle and chased me around the house with it trying to beat me with it . 2 weeks later I tried to leave and she ripped my clothes and took my purse with my ID and SSN and card later finding out that she opened credit cards,utilities, and cell phone in my name not paying them and at the wonderful age.of 18 my credit was at a 470 this I found out from the bank when they denied me a car loan for my terrible credit . When I brought this to her and my father's attention ( this is another toxic relationship I have but only when it involves me mother minus her it's happy and normal) they stated it was wrong it's a mistake and someone stole my identity 😒um yea you . After this I stopped speaking to my parents and moved to California after being married for a couple of years we had my son jayden when I called home to tell my family my mother acted as if I wasn't married and hadn't not been married for the past 2 years and instead of a congratulations I got a how could you do this to me I'm too young tor be a grandmother and she was so serious called.me dumb a whore just about any name I stopped speaking to her for about 6 months by then I found out the sex of our son and she called and said she wanted to send some things so she basically took care of the diapers and clothes for our son up until he was 1 she also included disposable cameras (this was a time where these were still being used lol) 2 cameras for me to take pics and send her so we were good until it was time for me to print the pics I made triples one for me one for her and one for my mother in law . She asked me where the pictures where I explained I sent them all to her his nana and I kept a set she went off on me said she didn't but the camera for his trash family my kid looks like there ugly side and that they all look like fucking monkeys 2 years before I talked to her again .

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