Single in the city : I am just not cut out for struggle love

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LoI'm sorry I can not settle for mediocre love,feelings, actions especially in a relationship. I have found in the past that I created a list of not a perfect guy but a great guy in my mind and what did I do? Not listen to one damn thing on my list, then I turn around and date just that and he does exactly what I knew he would do . Had I paid mind to the list and done right loads of things would be different .

Where I completely fucked up in my own life as far as dating :

Skinny- ok nothing wrong with a skinny fella but in the past my attraction lays with the big fellas or the in between now I'll date a skinny dude maybe will sleep with him but the novelty wears off at some point .

Deadbeat dad: now I have dated dead beat dad's not realizing they were until dating them a Lil longer . I ask the right questions now this was something I did in the past if he's a Deadbeat with them he will be for yours if you want more. Scratch that just leave him the hell alone .

If he doesn't have his shit together- this is a damned if you do damned if you don't scenario if you care what people think about you if you settle for a guy that doesn't have his stuff together and can't even pay for a simple 2 for 20 at Applebee's then you are dumb and he's wasting your time. On the flip side if you decided not to date Mr loser pants you are a gold digger the best ways to avoid the awkward talk is jut to not date him . I had a guy angry at me that he set up a date knowing he had no car and made me aware of this 5 minutes before the date was supposed to have happened . And another that was just trying to come over and chill on my couch or go to the beach several times after our first "date" which was coffee , no change up Nada I realized it and starting dating other people and he just became a distant memory.

I just realized I don't handle struggle love since I've had that with guys I was in love with and got me nowhere why in heavens name would I do this with a stranger ugh 2016 dating absolutely sucks lol