Single in the city: number 1 part 3

He's a problem always has and if he decides to stay this way will more than likely always be . It's so hard to detach from someone that you have children with I just don't want them to one day say why did you keep me from my father I never want them to have an opinion based on him on my feelings and just want it to be their own . I honestly feel staying attached to him causes me more stress and strife than having him here I hate playing nice so I'm not stressed and I hate doing everything he says to not have a shot storm happen as well. If he never came in my life I wouldn't have my kids which honestly are the only things that are great in my life right now. But I also would have finished college a lot earlier, gone to the military like I was supposed to and would have been an officer by now if I went with my plan and not his . Funny how some can give all the power to someone else about their own lives smh thinking about it now it was very foolish on my part . I'm not sure I'd be any happier but I know most of my issues with men,dating,trust and life would not be how they are if they weren't for my marriage to him.